I'd just like to know why...

When things hurt do they linger? Its far easier to get over being angry or frustrated or annoyed than it is to get over or to get past something that has hurt you. Being hurt sucks, because not only are you hurt, but nine times out of ten you're also angry and frustrated. It's the balls I say! I hate wondering all the time, constantly second guessing. Did I do the right thing? Did I do what was best for me? And even though I know the answer is yes, it still lingers. How different would my life be right now? Would I be the same person I am right now? I know the answer to that too, but why is it that when things hurt us, it's so hard to let them just go? Our minds seem to dwell, always looking back. And every time we look back, we still feel that same loss, that same heartache, and what makes it even worse is when that heartache and loss came upon needlessly. But for me, what's even worse than that, is knowing there are those out there who blame...me. But I am not the one to blame, or at least, I am not the one to bear the blame on my shoulders alone. It should be shared, but it is not. It should be fair, but it is not. I wish I could just rewind the tape and just rewrite over that time in my life, record a new memory and forget about the old painful ones. That's the hardest part, because that can never happen and my memory is all too clear.