I am not strong, nor am I brave and I have failed...this time. A person can only put their mind and body through so much before it breaks. It's important to know ones limits. I have for the time being, left this project in self improvement to be still and lye away from me. In the end it turned out to be too much for my mind and body to take. Withdrawals alone were simple, but the mind, the mind is a terrible thing. Adjustments, it's all about adjustments. Adjustments greater than my mind could deal with together. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't find relief, all I could do was cry. My sanity still wavers and walks a thin line between shattering at my feet and finding itself whole again. Only time will tell where I go from here. But this project is not finished and I will be back to complete my task and perhaps next time, I will prevail. One can say, I will do this, I can do this, over and over again, but sometimes mind isn't over matter and sometimes it's that one tiny little thing that can make you or break you. I don't want to be broken. But I'll come back to you, oh project of mine...but for now, be still and leave me in peace.